Saying goodbye is never easy. It is really not easy when I had to do it too soon. I never had the chance to be the person that I wanted to be for you. I could never be the friend that you were to me. I just was not ready, I guess I needed more time. I am not sure when the right time is start acting like the person that you want to be, but I never got there for you. And now I have to say goodbye. Gone is gone. Death is permanent.
Today we spread your ashes at “The Ranch” surrounded by the beautiful scenery that you enjoyed so much. The majesty of the mountains with the fresh summer flowers seemed to wrap its arms around you. You belong to the ranch now. To the earth. To the flowers and the sky. I felt you there today. You changed my life in ways that you will never really know and you will never know what you did for me. I should have told you. Goodbye dear friend.